...so i hopped on the freeipods bandwagon .. I don't wanna be the only person without one =)
James got his like a week or two ago so it's not a scam .. all you have to do is sign up (preferably using my link) and complete one offer (the ebay one does not require a credit card) and refer five friends. They need to complete one offer. I did the ebay one, bid on something popular, and someone already bid higher than me .. so I'm all set .. I just need people to sign up now .. using my link which is in my AIM profile .. and right here..

Free ipod .. you know you want one =)

okay .. bold books you've read .. italicize ones you started but never finished .. and add three of your own to your livejournal. There are so many books on this list that I'd forgotten that I read and I'd loved .. I have to re-read some of them .. and on one hand I can't believe I've read so much, and on the other hand I can't believe I've read so little. I think I'm going to make it my goal to read all of these books by the time I graduate college .. anyone think i can do it?

( Long-ass list of books )

What I did on my Mini-vacation.
By Cristina Colom (yeah i'm corny)

Well anyways, what I did the past few days...and what I'm going to do the next few days. I went to Ocean City to the beach house Nick and Matt rented with their friends. I've spent about 10 hours total on public transportation the past 2 days. I left TCNJ at like 12:55. I had all these directions written down but the bus driver gave me better ones. So I took the light rail to some transfer station. It took about 45 minutes or so. There was this guy in front of me, he was reading something, and, dork that I am, kept trying to see what he was reading. after about thirty seconds i decided that i didn't really care and I went back to crocheting stuff. about half way there I needed to know what time it was so i asked him and he started talking to me. of course the convo turned to his book, it was by steinbeck. He recommended I read "tortilla flat" also by steinbeck. I'm to email him a full report on how i liked it =P i'm such an english dork.

On the bus to the Atlantic City Transfer Station I sat next to a very very nice lady who kept talking in her cell phone, she was about 60 i'd say. maybe 55ish...and she saw me crocheting. She was so nice! She showed me what I was doing wrong and how to fix it. She asked me if i knew how to knit, I said no, but i might have some needles in my bag. I did'nt but I had two crochet needles of the same size, so she taught me how to knit on two backwards crochet needles. Talk about improv. She gave me her card, in case i ever need to buy a house =P haha.

I FINALLY made it to ocean city, then i had to find the house, I asked the bus driver but he was wrong so i asked a mechanic, and he was right. I found the house, and I was exhausted. But I got to watch as they played an enthralling game of Risk haha. Well I was crocheting the whole time so i didnt mind. Then after that me and Matt went on the boardwalk together. He got me a burger cause I was hungry. He really is one of the nicest people I know hands down. We then got some (freaking expensive!!) Ben and Jerry's. Mmmm. After that we headed back to the house, where we watched Aqua Teen Hunger Force. So so funny.

Then they all decided to play another fun-filled game of Risk. Nick didn't wanna play so me and him went to play DDR in the arcade. (Mind you it was about 2AM by this point) we played for a while, then headed back. BTW i HAVE to get a DDR pad cause I suck. Nick still amazes me with his DDR skills. I was basically in awe. So we headed back and walked on the beach a bit, but the police yelled at us. apparently you're not allowed on the beach at night. I think that's stupid. It's the beach. Why can't you walk on the beach?

So we got back and they were on the front porch smoking cigars. Everyone went in but Matt, so I talked to him a bit then he made me a drink cause I asked. idk what it was but it was sooo good. It tasted like that goya coconut soda but better. We sat outside and talked for like an hour. Matt is just...an amazing person. I have to say. I just don't know how to describe the awesomeness that is Matt. I just wish I was going to come back to TCNJ. But no matter. I don't think we're going to grow apart or anything. I have a feeling we're gonna stay as good friends as we are now. After a while we decided to hit the hay. Of course by then it was like 4 in the morning.

The next day, I woke up around 11ish and Matt asked me if I wanted to go get breakfast on the boardwalk. You know me, I never turn down food. so we ate and went back, and watched ATHF some more. Then everyone decided to go to the beach. I sunned a bit (yeah tan!) and went in the water by myself while Matt and Nick and them placed bocci ball. When they were done I got Matt to accompany me into the water. We enjoyed the waves a bit, then his friends came in the water and they all played frisbee. It was a good time. Although I got my ass kicked BADLY by the waves. I tried so hard to dunk nick in the water, but to no avail. I got matt a few times though but idk if it's just cause he let me. =P

We got out around 4:30 and went back took showers and such. They dropped me off at the OCTS (ocean city transfer station) and i waited there a while. I started feeding some fries to a lone seagull in front of me and this old guy. The seagull i think was trying not to call attention to his being fed, but eventually the other gulls took notice. He tried his fiercest to guard his food but the gulls were too much. So he led them on a wild goose (gull?) chase. He finally returned. It was really something to watch. So then I got on the bus, slept almost missed my stop but didn't. Then I waited by the lightrail and one creepy guy tried to talk to me, so I backed off and decided to go to Dunkin Donuts. Then another creepy guy who'd seen the other creepy guy talking to me was like "You shouldn't talk to guys like him, you look very vulnerable and alone. Don't talk to people like that" and i know he meant well but it still kind of made me uneasy so I found the a clump of people and made sure I wasn't alone. I hate giving off the vibe that I'm vulnerable. So I got on the light rail and got to trenton. Then waited for the bus. it was really dark by then so I was a bit uneasy. I was also one of the last people on the bus, I was also uneasy then. I'm starting to not like public transportation so much. So then I got back to TCNJ and tomorrow around noon I'm going with TJ to the beach with his family. Jake's coming too but i'm not sure if he's coming or leaving. I'll find out tomorrow.

I just hope I get really tanned. =) Yay not being pasty!

Oooh I'm so excited!! Bush is coming to rehearse at TCNJ Saturday!! I'm thrilled cause i'm gonna let scotso and amanda use my shower so they dont' have to use the public ones, and i'm going to make them pasta =) hopefully i'll get to see the show idk if i'll have money for it though, if it costs anything. ah well...

Okay it's bedtime. i hope I have a good time tomorrow. I'm pretty sure I will though.   

If it makes you happy, it can't be that bad. If it makes you happy then why the hell are you so sad?

I'm going to see if doing a mindless survey will make me feel better.

01. I have never kissed someone of the same sex on the lips.
02. I see a therapist.
03. I'm the youngest child.
04. I am drawn to things associated with sadness.
05. I love my gauged earrings.
06. I wear black eyeliner every day.
07. I am extremely influenced by kindness.
08. I love to write, even though I think I suck at it. (personal writing. not school writing)
09. I can't live without lipgloss/chapstick.
10. I'm probably emotionally scarred. (But I think I'm pretty well adjusted in spite of it)
11. I lived in Tahoe.
12. I spend money I have. (and money I don't have)

13. I'll be in college for over 4 years.
14. I love designer handbags.
15. I've had a concussion before.
16. I'm not good with confrontation. (do anything to avoid it

17. I loved the Backstreet Boys.
18. I have more than a couple horrible memories.
19. I'm addicted to Degrassi. (what's that? Isn't that a brand of water?)
20. I've tried writing poetry before but it sucked.
21. My first kiss was unexpected.
22. I'm not a fan of rap. (can i bold this multiple times?)
23. i love taking pictures.
24. I hate girls who are fake.
25. I can be mean when I want to. (I need to get bitchy)
26. When I allow myself to get close to people, I get very attached. (and it's got me hurt, so I try to remedy it.)
27. I am bisexual.
28. I have way too many pairs of shoes.
29. I was into Hot Wheels as a child.
30. I dress how I feel that day.
31. My room is painted a color other than white.
32. I cry very easily.
33. I'm always early. (hahaha! I run on Cuban time)
34. I barely ever study for tests.
35. My birthday is my favorite holiday.
36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser. (YEAH. Even with half my clothes at school!)
37. I am a morning person. (does this count staying up till the morning?)
38. I wish I was smarter. (In so many different ways)
39. I believe that it is wrong to be gay.
40. I don't blame gay people for being gay, its not like they have a choice.
41. No one really knows me. (Very few people know me)
42. I don't have many bad hair days. (it's curly. I don't have much of a choice. It's ineveitable)

43. I sometimes fight with my parents.
44. I am passionate about my interests.
45. I have had the chicken pox.
46. I'm a hopeless romantic. (I used to be. I think I've gotten a bit cynical)
47. I feel empty sometimes. (a lot. is that bad?)
48. I am/was most likely clinically depressed at a point in my life.
49. I am no longer depressed.
50. I am very outgoing.
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday.
52. I can be very insecure.
53. I don't notice it, but I'm told I'm very softspoken.
54. I hate ignorant people. (I feel sorry for them more. I dislike ignorance. And arrogance. I hate arrogance)
55. I love the color yellow.
56. I love guys that play the guitar. (depends on the guy)
57. I state the obvious.
58. I'm a happy person.
59. I have absolutely no self-confidence.
60. I've contemplated suicide
61. I hate cleaning my room.
62. I tend to get jealous.
63. I like to play video games. (I love them, I'm an addict)
64. I love John Mayer.
65. I get more upset when I see an animal hurt than a person.
66. I'm a vegetarian/vegan/don't eat beef.
67. I've had a crush on a teacher before.
68. I am too forgiving. (am i EVER...)
70. I have a good sense of direction.
71. I've never had a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
72. I've played a musical instrument for more than 5 years. (Sax, trumpet)
73. I can function perfectly well without a girlfriend/boyfriend.
74. I love kisses on the forehead.
75. I love the color blue.
76. I don't sew.
77. I am not addicted to drugs.
78. I wear contacts.
79. I don't really care about politics.
80. I hate Bush, but I have reasons to justify it.
81. I don't take criticism well. At all.
82. Conformity is stupid.
83. I looooooove Colin Farrell. (i just think he's a babe)
84. Rocker boys/chicks turn me on.
85. I love my family SOMETIMES.
86. I don't mind getting shots.
87. I am a perfectionist when it comes to certain things.
88. I always wanted to learn to play the guitar. (and I learned three chords a few months ago. I've had a guitar for...7 years. sad.) (btw, thanks Jono)
89. I can be too hard on myself.
90. I'm probably going to have premarital sex.
91. I don't like my nose.
92. I am very religious.
93. I still act like a little kid.
94. I am ridiculously indecisive. ("Hey Kiran, what kind of crust should I get!? I can't decide! Thin crust, regular, or deep dish!?")
95. I believe in a higher power or some form of an afterlife.
96. I love music.
97. I'm in love. (Jon Stewart.)
98. I have problems letting go of people.
99. Ashlee Simpson is awesome.
100. I don't really like ice cream.

It's official. (for the most part) I'm not going back to TCNJ. I just can't afford it. I could pay 1600 a year by going to a community college, or 18,000 by going to tcnj with virtually no financial aid. I'm thinking since I'm going to live at home, I'll do well at Bergen which is really close to my house. Maybe I'll be able to transfer back to TCNJ by my senior year if I get stellar grades and (even though I know TCNJ is stingy with them) get a scholarship, or some sort of financial aid from somewhere.

I'm planning on visiting TCNJ (provided I can find someone to stay with) twice a monthish. I'm hoping I have enough friends there that I'll be able to do that without imposing on any person. Since I hate taking the train early in the morning and leaving late at night, I'm hoping I'll be able to stay the whole weekend, not nessessarily with the same people though, unless someone insists =P

I'm gonna be so sad to leave though. I've made a lot of awesome friends. Some of them are going to be really, really, really, really hard to leave. You never know what's going to happen in the future. People grow apart and you lose touch...and I hope that doesn't happen because I care about all my friends. Thinking about it depresses me so much. I've been trying to make the best of it since I've decided to switch schools, but it's really starting to get to me...

Sometimes you gotta give in
Sometimes you gotta be loved...

...Well, maybe we all could use a little grace
To know when to run and when to
Stay in one place